Loving you feels like learning a foreign language. At first it doesn’t make any sense to me and I don’t understand what I keep doing wrong. I’m flustered and I sound stupid. But the point of learning a language is that the more time you spend with it, the better you get. Being in love with you feels like learning more about you, what you like, what you don’t like. Loving you feels like being out and seeing something that reminds me of you. Love is like being fluent in you.

What it feels to love you- Madison Moore

Being with you is an education. Mostly because you are the first boyfriend-material guy I've fallen for. You don't know how all these couple-y things are all so new to me: taking cute pictures, ending a text with 'love you', you coming over with hot choc when I'm feeling down.. I'm still struggling, because a part of me wants to go all out convincing you and me that we can make this good, and another part of me is still guarding my heart so I don't fall apart when December comes. What am I supposed to do? :(

I watched it begin again.

"You're hallucinating."
"But you're real."
"Yes I am."
"I love you."
"I love you too."

First i-love-you. We were lazing around while you had Greek yogurt on your face because I convinced you that it'll make your skin better. I didn't see it coming, but it was like picking a choice when the only answer is yes. I'm crystal clear about how I feel about you. Time seems to have stopped briefly. After that we went to hunt down for a portable chair for room 295. You spent so much time in the room with me and the girls tt you've become the fifth member of the room.
I wish I can have 500 days and more with you.

"5. The only thing that matters is being with them.

Not that there isn’t a lot to be said for intricate or adventurous outings, but one of the truer signs of love is the utter indifference towards what you are you actually doing, so long as you are with your dearest. The two of you, in fact, are more than content to spend an entire afternoon lying in bed naked, telling each other what you like about each other and generally being vomit-inducing to everyone who is not you. Outside of your little world, nothing exists — just remember to eat at least semi-regular meals in between all of your butterfly kisses."
Chelsea Fagan, Thought Catalog

"We're weak, we're in need, we're in the moment -- but most of all, we're human."
Christopher Hudspeth, Thought Catalog

The boring things 

1. Told x some time ago that I'm looking for someone to do the boring things with me. Its easy to find people to do the fun and exciting things, but not many people are willing to do the boring, mundane, and dull things with you, to see the less-than-glamorous side of you, to be there for you not because they need to/ are obliged to but because they want to. In this very messed up situation of ours, I'm relieved that I can still count on you to do these small and uninteresting things with me.

2. Midterms. One down, two more to go. Studying for midterms is so draining.

3. Astronomy assignment. That stuff is really torturous for me because its so math and physic-y. But I find that listen to the jazz radio channel on Pandora and a cup of hot coffee/tea make it a lot more bearable.


The more interesting things

1. Esperanza/ Centennial break. Cant wait for the long weekend next week. Rice is celebrating its 100th so there's gonna be the Esperanza party (where girls ask boys out), and I'm so excited for that. Other plans include shopping trip, and sleepover at Pooja's place.

2. Field trip. My sociology class had a field trip last week to downtown Houston. It was an eye-opener because inequality is ten times more prevalent here, especially among the African American community, and it saddens me so much. The coming presidential election is gonna be so crucial and nail-biting.

3. Skype. As usual, skyping makes my life so much better. Seeing familiar faces, even if there are x miles away never fails to cheer me up. Skyped vanny on her birthday and just ended an hour of Skype chat with JY who's currently in Amsterdam.

4. Baking for Bakerites. We made banana bread and some chocolate chip and orange cookies yesterday and invited people to come down to the lounge/kitchen to hangout and eat. It was so much fun! We need to make that a more regular occurrence.